Eff thiiissss

I'm not sure why I'm still here. I've never resented life this much... I just want it all to end. So, why the fuck do I stick around this long? For my family, I guess. I don't want to hurt anyone but... do I have much of a choice? This is pathetic of me! I should be able to overcome this! So why can't I? Why can't I be normal? Why can't my LIFE be normal? Is it too much to ask?.. Just to be happy? Just to be. :/