I can feel when my mind is starting to overpower me. I can feel it rising in my skull like poisonous air drifting in places it shouldnt be... Its like a switch. I'm happy, perfectly happy. And suddenly my anxiety, tempered by anger, rises to lift my darkest spirits. Its truly antagonizing. It's a faint burning in my skull, and a slight flinch... A twitch. It deepens inside my muscle; moves me unwillingly. These hostile thoughts grow and deepen inside me, begging to boil over. My head shakes profusely and I'm overruled by this sensation of hatred. I want nothing more than to disappear. No, not disappear, not exist. To never have been brought into this chaotic world of destroyed happiness.
And thats how I know I'm losing my mind.

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